Here I am again bringing you another birthday card. (Faithfully as usual :P)
I've been thinking about age a lot recently.
I'm 19 and will be turning 20 in December. So, I only have about 8 months left of being a teenager.
And I have mixed feelings about that. It's cool to be turning 20 and all but it's also kind of scary too. Like, where did all those years go? Am I really ready to be that old?
Most people guess me for younger. You see, I'm pretty small for my age and people often guess me around 4 or 5 years younger than I actually am.
And often times I find myself feeling like I'm younger as well. Most of my friends are younger than me and people just assume that I'm younger than I actually am.
And I've gotten used to it.
I'm not so sure that's a good thing though.
It's making me think of myself as younger, making me act younger.
It's making me lower my performance since the expectation is no longer as high.
So that's why I've been reminding myself that I am older. Not because I want to rush through life or because I'm trying to elevate myself to something I'm not.
Because if I want people to treat me like an adult, I've got to start acting like one.
That's why it's good to be in certain environments where the people look at me as an adult and expect me to act like one. It suddenly makes it easier to rise to the call.
But when I'm in environments where people just look at me like a kid, it's easier to just act like a kid.
So there's my post about adulting. :P
"When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things." (1 Cor. 13:11 KJV)<3 ashley